I KNOW I'VE BEEN CHANGED
As I get older, my patience and tolerance for things seems to get shorter and shorter by the minute. I think I'm also being tested because of the environment I live in...millions of people rushing here and there, and everybody has one thing on their mind - I AM GOING TO GET MINE AND YOU BETTER GET OUT OF MY WAY!
Every day I ride a crowded bus and train to work. In the mornings it's ok, but in the evening when I am tired and ready to go home...the drama starts. Have you ever had to stand in the blazing sun and watch 2, 3, 4 buses pass you by because they're filled up with people? And then when one does stop, it's every man, woman and child for themselves...."Get out of the way...I need to get on this bus" and you will be pushed and shoved and squashed until they get on.
I had to literally put my hand in front of this woman and restrain her from cutting in front of me because I clearly was the next person to board. I didn't like that, and I know that had I been really forceful...an altercation may have ensued.
This is all new to me, and I don't like it. So, some days I say..."girl you have a car, just drive and avoid that madness!" But oh no....it's worse on the highways because insane, selfish, uncaring people also have cars and that behavior carries over. People don't signal lane changes, they cut you off because they want to be in front of you, and then they slow down and cruise...."hey didn't you just damn near run me off the road for going too slow and now you're doing it to me?"
Yesterday I drove to work, and on the way home there was a stalled truck on the bridge. Well, the traffic was backed up for miles. And wouldn't you know it, those selfish, uncaring, insane jerks who believed they could drive right pass the line and merge into the traffic way up ahead of you kept coming, and coming and coming. It was just amazing. I understand road rage because as hot as it was, my nerves were beginning to fray, and rage began to build as two lanes of traffic became three, and then four lanes all the way up to the very last possible space to merge into my outside lane.
I never understand why other people believe they are entitled to "cheat" the system, and cut in front of their fellow passengers in order to get better positioned in traffic when we're all trying to get somewhere....but they do it all of the time.
When I exit from the freeway, there's a lane that merges onto the freeway behind my lane, and those cars who are merging, clearly see that there is no marked lane outside of the one I'm sitting in, but they go on the outside anyway and then forcefully merge in the lane. Some days I just deal with it, and other days, I position my car and block their way. Why do I have to do this....because I don't want to give this person the upper hand on my turn in line. Everybody disregards the right of way....that's been replaced with....IT'S MY WAY! People drive any way they want and they just don't give any regard to who is in front of them, who is behind them, and who they may cause distress or even an accident because they're on a mission to get where they're going....and nothing and nobody else matters.
What choice do I have though....suffer on the trains and buses, or suffer on the highways. It's all in a day's commute my friends, all in a day's commute! But I say to all of you who believe you're the only person that matters on this planet...just wait and see. One day you're going to be the one who gets cheated on and you'll be pissed off and left wondering....now why did they do that to me?!
VAULT 350
It's all good ya'll, the party train just keeps on rolling. Last Fri. (8/18) my cousin got tickets to attend Marcus Miller's show and it was the bomb. Marcus plays the bass guitar, keyboards, and he also plays the alto, tenor and bass sax. The man is too talented. I know of Marcus Miller because he and Laylah Hathaway did a song some years ago and it was the jam. When I found out it was on Marcus' album, I bought it.
Well wouldn't you know it, Laylah Hathaway joined Marcus and the band onstage. Although she didn't sing that song, anything Laylah sings is worth listening too. We got to meet Laylah and take some pics, and also meet a few other band members. It was a fun night.
IT'S THE WEEKEND
Well, this Sat. I did what I knew had to be done....cleaned up my storage space a bit. I had the intentions of sorting through my clothing to take to the consignment shop or donate them, but I didn't get that far. Instead I made room to take out a busted dresser and lots of other miscellaneous stuff that I may be able to sell since I don't use them.
I also bought myself a much needed shelf unit that I customized so that I could store my craft supplies on it. I went to Big Lots, and found 3 separate platic shelf units with wheels. I didn't like the top shelf on it, so I took it off and just used the two remaining shelves of it. This afforded me six separate shelves to stack on top of each other and I cannot tell you how much better my "studio" kitchen looks. I was so anxious to set it up, I did not take "before" and "after" pictures. So I'll just say....it's exactly what I needed.
I spent the entire weekend trying to get organized at home and I'm almost there. I still have tons of clothes to sort through and wash, but at least I made some headway. I didn't get to wash, but that will come this weekend. I was able to also start a few other projects that I have been wanting to start, so all-in-all....it was a successful weekend.
I have so much stuff, and it's high time I got rid of what I'm not using. Yes, thank God for the weekend, 'cause I love every minute of doing what I want to do...in m own little space, on my own time.
FIT FOR LIFE
I got on the scale this morning because I have been avoiding it all month. I am not happy, but I haven't resigned myself to doing a thing about it. I ate pizza for dinner last night (because it was cheap $5), and then I ate a muffin this morning for breakfast (because I wanted it). My sister and her sister-in-law are forming a women's weight loss club and I am supposed to join. They will have their first meeting this weekend in Sacramento. I can't go, but I have the agenda. I have to envision myself lean again, like I was when I lost weight the beginning of the year. I remember I would lie on my back and hold my knees up in front of me, and just marvel at how thin they looked. That was my measuring stick to tell me that I hadn't gained any weight back.
What will get me motivated? I don't know, I don't know....maybe the challenge of getting in this club. I can see myself walking more, sweating more, and losing weight again. I have to come up with a healthier way of eating every day. Yesterday I ate five nectarines for breakfast, a small cup of soup and an artichoke for lunch and then ate six slices of pizza (they were small). But that's half of the pizza. An hour or two later.....I was dying in the bathroom. That fruit cut through me, and the cheese on the pizza just tore me up. I'm lactose intolerant for God's sake, and I eat dairy anyway. You see what I mean? Foolish, just play foolish!!!
I love fruit and I call myself eating lots of it to avoid eating the wrong thing. Well my body can't take all that. So then I eat salads, and my body can't take that either! That's why I go back to eating the wrong things. I can't stand being all gassey....what the heck am I supposed to do?
I NEED HELP. The other thing is, I haven't been to the Dr. at all this year. We changed health care providers in Feb. and I haven't investigated this new carrier. I am just living on the edge you might say........and that ain't good at all. I haven't checked my blood pressure, nothin'! Why do we fall into these self-imposed pitfalls? I don't know, but I need a hand getting out of it, 'cause I can't do it alone. HELP! SOMEBODY HELP ME!....h....e.....l...p!!!!!
OK last night I was dancing to some of my new CD's, and you know what? All I have to do is do some kind of dancing a few nights a week and continue to walk and eat better (I'm on a soup diet now), and I think I'll begin to see some changes. I know this is an easy solution, but I just didn't even feel like doing this. I have to just get up off the couch and do something! :0)
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